On the cusp of change, I am struggling with reality.

Of late, I’ve not been in the best of myself. I’m not at optimum sure to a variety of issues. They range from money to life perspective to the feeling of being left behind, so far that I don’t even know where to begin picking up my footsteps.

Once upon a time, life was on its way to fulfilling the life of what dreams are made of but these days, they are as gloomy as the dark clouds gathering just before the storm.

I must admit, suicide head crossed my mind many times and there you go, I’ve finally said it. That’s been on my mind for a while now and it gets more intense when the best days become the worst days. How can I not when all the factors stacked against you were not supposed to be there but they are because it is human relationships we’re surrounded ourselves with.

Life, although pleasant just less than a month ago, today reality hit and crash like the avalanche. At every turn I asked, “Where did I go wrong?”

The quick answer is, myself and my decisions.

The slow answer is, not to depend on others because sometimes, it’s the one you least expect that will come to hurt and ruin you the most.

As such, we should do all we can to safeguard our lives and also our health. Beyond that and it’s a bonus for us all.

I hope things will change when I wake up tomorrow. I need to quicken this process so I don’t drown further into oblivion.

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